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The past knows it is over but at times longs to invade today

The past may have taught you many lessons but the present is where you must now reside

The past was when you were only able to do what you then knew

The past has within its paintings moments of pleasure…moments of pain

The past which continually overshadows your goals of today needs to be thrown into the sea of forgetfulness

The past has feet that longs to walk alongside your new confidence…remove the insecurity arising suddenly within

The past is over and you are now a new creation in Christ Jesus

The past and brooding over it brings tears of regret you can do nothing about…free yourself

The past will hold your hand along life’s journey if you choose to be its best friend

The past is just that…the past…once upon a time when you still needed to grow and mature

Precious Lord, thank you for new beginnings; a new way of life; a canvas that we can paint together, You and I, and when my heart breaks for no reason other then a memory of what was and what could have been, may your ever present presence remind me that now is what truly matters and as we walk this journey hand in hand, may your guidance, mercy and grace fill my spirit with the knowledge that you are the Way, the Truth and the Life and your unconditional, ever present love is all I need.

May your reassurance touch each aching heart and your power cover each fearful heart that is feeling so alone.

Thank you Lord Jesus. We love you. xxxx


In all His majestic awesome glory we behold His face…Lord of heaven and earth you are omnipotent…omnipresent and all powerful yet with the tenderness and patience of one far beyond our understanding, You wait in the isles of mercy, longing for our complete surrender so as to make you Lord and King of every part of our lives. Ruling the earth and all that takes place, You stretch forth your hand and bring back everything that begins to move in the opposite direction, into its rightful place whether man is aware of your intervention or not, for no one can replace the power of Your spoken word which not only brought all into existence but continues to lay claim to the beginning and end of all things. Nature in all its force of magnificence bows to the sound of Your voice; the birds and fowls of the air react to the call of Your majesty. Man in Your image longs to lay claim to Your power…bringing it into subjection to his own word but alas man has yet to surrender his will to the pure knowledge that there is no one as great and powerful as You. In infinite wisdom You gave man a free choice for in so doing he would see his need and sorrowful state that he is in, thus surrendering to the only One who could save him from an eternity filled with the intense burning agonizing pain of eternal hell. As the skies above reveal the magnitude of Your graceful heart, oh precious Lord, our everlasting Saviour and King, so the shades of the colourful beauty of the rainbow of promise send forth the glorious message that You will be with us for time and eternity.
Riding upon the winds of eternity You await our arrival ready to usher us, Your children, into the heavenly realm where no tears are shed; no pain fills our aching human body; no strife and conflict bring disorder and rampage into being. Broken scattered souls are no more; the fighting has ended and man with his new body hails You as THE only One who paid the ultimate price for his soul to be saved.
For a fleeting moment in time whilst walking the pathway of but a man in a fleshly body, we knew the power of grief due to sin cascading down on an earth covered in flowing pain of man enmeshed in sin due to mindsets of a spirit of untold lust for greed and control. How each suffered in their own fragmented way, longing for the day when all could come together and bear the burden that had become to heavy to carry for one needy soul. Under the guise of leadership, man broke in spirit, mind and body, for leadership without the intervention of the personal leading and guiding of the Holy Spirit, brought slavery in one form or another back into the equation. The desperate cry of lost, lonely, beguiled souls flew on gale force winds through the skies above into the throne room of Heaven, bringing with it the ever falling tears of man and his perverted ways, straight to the heart of the Father.
My children, did I not send my Son, my One and only Son, to pay the ultimate price for your sin; your need to be removed from the bondage of darkness and the evil one holding you hostage to his every whim? Did I not love you so much that I showered you with all that I Am and all that I have? Waiting to bring you back into the fold, He came and shed His pure Blood so that you could be free. Free to live as men removed from the flesh of utter destruction and everlasting darkness. Free to serve Me in Truth with My wisdom, knowledge and power residing within you.
Time has been spent, once again, as in days of old when man reduced himself to lower than that of an animal. The greatness of the God given earth groans under the effects of selfish man consumed with wanting to rule and gain all for his own satisfaction and glory. Yet will He rise in greatness and power when the sound of the trumpet goes forth, for at His Divine call, all shall bow and acknowledge that He and He alone is Lord. Our King, our Majesty, our Shepherd; our Prince of Peace; our all consuming, all loving; all powerful Lord.
Great and mighty is He
Great and mighty is He
Clothed in Majesty
Arrayed in Splendor
Great and mighty is He.


Rest oh my soul and forget not the many times He touched and brought healing to your broken body and grieving heart
Rest oh my soul and remember the joy unspeakable that cascaded through every fiber of your being when needed
Rest oh my soul and with eyes of faith see the new day beckoning you to walk His way of surrender
Rest oh my soul and know that every trial has brought you to the point of where you become stronger in Him
Rest oh my soul and see the pure beauty of the rainbow after the storm has passed
Rest oh my soul and know deep within that you are a painting of divine passion
Rest oh my soul and realize in your spirit that He will never leave nor forsake you.
Rest oh my soul and behold the majestic creation He spoke into existence
Rest oh my soul and feel the beating of two hearts intertwined…His and yours
Rest oh my soul knowing although man has failed you He will stay true to you for He is truth in everyway
Rest oh my soul and grasp the gift of His amazing grace towards your troubled heart
Oh my soul…your inner cries have not gone unnoticed by our loving Heavenly Father. With arms outstretched and a heart filled with compassion and tender love He will pour forth His healing and your bruises and broken pieces will once again be whole and with His strength and your inner courage you will rise up as the eagle and fly beyond your dreams. Precious are those who put their hope and trust in the Lord for He is faithful and His love covers as a blanket of warmth from the cold moments of despair.
Rest oh my soul.


You are as the eagle and able to fly above the storm clouds thus seeing the situation as it really is…so fly
You are fearless and able to look your prey in the eye…so be bold
You are a mighty warrior able to stand your ground against every enemy…so use your sword
You are a child of the most High King…so behave as His ambassador
You are called to make disciples of all men…so go forth in faith
You are the head and not the tail…so claim your victory
You are a brand new man In Christ…so be free from all bondage
You are never alone for He is always with you…so give Him glory
You are more than a conqueror…so take your rightful place
You are loved with an everlasting love…so turn from despair
You are delivered from all that held you bound…so take back what he tried to steal
You are growing in knowledge and grace as you study His Word…so bring forth life
You are not forsaken nor left…so do not believe the enemies lies
You are a beautiful child of His even when you doubt it…so believe it
You are called to succeed no matter any negative words spoken…so see yourself successful
You are all that He says you are in His Word…so praise and honour your Saviour.


Please dear pastors; preachers; teachers; ministers; men in general; whoever you are and whatever title has been given to you…please hear the voice of a woman; hear the inner voice of women in general. We are human and made in the image of our Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ just as you are. We have dreams; hopes and longings exactly the same way as you all do; the difference being at given times, is that we tend to lay bare our desires and inner thoughts whereas men so often hide from their longings; their hurts and their true inner feelings. We have this inborn desire to be cherished; loved unconditionally and made to feel special to you; the love and desire of our hearts; our precious strong man that we have chosen to walk through life with. We die each time a little more when we are counted as of no consequence in your life; your work for the Lord; your vision that keeps you so engrossed that you forget the small, simple things which make all the difference in our daily lives. We so desire to be part of your life; which may include ministry; working from home; out and about selling etc. Of course we do not want every detail; every thought along the way; every known breath you take but in sharing you open yourself and the real you to us and we in turn feel your passion; your tiredness; your insecurities…whatever it may be and then we can uplift and comfort you as only a wife; a friend; a helpmate can. Don’t look down on us simply because you have decided we will not understand; will not comprehend the huge task in front of you. How do you know this? Maybe we are more tuned in then you realise for we see what is not seen; we hear so often what is not outwardly shared; we discern what you are not saying for if your loved is in a personal, ongoing, close relationship with her Saviour then He most times chooses to reveal by the word of wisdom, knowledge and discernment, how to pray for you; what to reveal and what to wait on Him for. We love to be held when unsure; to be uplifted and prayed for; to be close to you in all ways for this in turn gives us the immense feeling of security. After all you are the one on which we can depend. Or are you? Your strength comes from within you and when close to your heart and spirit our own spirit soars and feels like it can do anything. Then why dear men, whoever you are, and believe me, it doesn’t matter if you are born again; a man who is simply of a wonderful dispensation; a preacher; a deacon etc, why is it so easy to bypass us when we need you the most? Yes you say, you are doing a work for the Lord and that is what is most important but truly what is most important is the life you have been given as a husband maybe a father. Ministry begins in the home. It is been able to uplift your wife when she is hurting; afraid; feeling that you have drifted off and she is unable to reach you. Glory to the Lord is in showing your nearest and dearest the loving compassionate heart of Jesus. In showing your family that next to Him they are so important and special. How is it possible been abrupt and bad tempered with your family then walking around showing love and concern for outsiders brings the compassion and tenderness of Jesus into a family situation?
Dear men…of all shapes and sizes; ranks; saved and unsaved, please know that if you are into porn and think you are hiding it from your loved one, think again. You are one flesh; one spirit; one in unison and even if you don’t understand that, you are and nothing can change it. Your addiction to porn brings with it a dreadful price. Women feel degraded and humiliated when their man prefers to gaze with intense lust at naked women in poses so graphic that it leaves nothing at all to the imagination. During this session of porn, whether it takes a few minutes or lasts for hours, the inner lust experienced leads the man to masturbate to what is before his eyes and unknowingly( maybe dear men you do know) you give your most sacred part of yourself; your seed; to this strange, unknown woman in front of you; and yes, she is real, for the women involved in porn and showing you all, are full blooded women like we are. We in turn are then expected to feel passion, respect and undying love for you when you reach out towards us for intimacy! Pray; do share men; how would you feel if your wife; the wife who has given her all to you, were to secretly gaze in awe and unbridled lust for another man’s body? If we were to think day and night about the poses he does; the full view we behold in front of us of his genitals and then wish, you too, were the size he was; the gorgeous shape his upper body was and could do all the things with us that we see on that particular site? We as women want to be the only person you want to embrace with a passion so rich and powerful that we are left longing and waiting in anticipation for your special touch; your body so beautiful in our eyes whether you are small in build or of a larger stature. When you have returned from your so called secret porn sessions please know that 99 per cent of all women feel dirty when you touch or gaze upon them for no longer are you THEIR man but now you are THAT woman’s man on the porn site. Your spirit is tarnished and we discern it, even if nothing is said at first. Bit by bit your mind will be taken over for satan always attacks the mind and soon what you found so enthralling will not be enough and you will need more and more filth so as to satisfy your inward lust.
Women want more then anything to be respected by you, our men, for as you show us this dignity so we blossom and even grow in the area of self confidence. We make mistakes; don’t understand all that you are interested in but in our hearts we still want to be a part so please do not discard us as of no consequence. Realise we may need some time to process the manly things you men find so exciting; cars, technology etc. No matter what may be said in today’s world about women been equal to men in all areas, deep down women who are true to their own inner spirit know that we are not in physical strength; in certain inbred characteristics etc. We do want to love and nurture you; we do want to be safe in your arms; we do want you to lead us but we are not your personal slaves without intelligence; we are not your punching bags when the world gets to you and we are not called to give up our personalities when becoming your woman. We are all unique and are called to walk alongside you with love and understanding but you too are called to love us as Christ loves His church. Please will you sort out your own inner fears and anger just because we have a say in a matter. If the Lord had wanted us women to be forever silent; devoid of emotions, no matter what is thrown at us; so submissive that we are like half dead zombies he would have not formed us from you. Are you half dead; are you devoid of all emotions; do you like been the brunt of irritations that actually have nothing to do with you? No!!! So if we came from you, yet made with the Hand of the Lord in love, we are like you in so many ways.
Dear men, we think as a whole, that you are pretty amazing; powerfully made and so full of passionate yet tender capabilities that we ask you in turn to love us as your woman; your special woman. We can be hard headed; full of ups and downs but in our hearts we are silently calling out to you to take us in your strong arms and love us back to wholeness.
You were created a man and we are women; just waiting; always waiting for your acceptance, acknowledgement and love for us just as we are. xxxx


Hold on precious one…hold on
Your time has not yet passed by… so hold on
Seasons have come and gone; the winter is upon you…so cold…yet hold on
Darkness moved in and the night appears so long…hold on
Dry and without the water of life to refresh you…do not give up…hold on
Burning in the scorching hot sun…almost lost in the desert…hold on
Glee from the one accusing you day and night…round and round you go…hold on
Fighting the battle within so no one knows or sees; so alone…hold on
Ready to toss away the reason for living…thoughts of ending it all…stay calm and hold on
Dead ends all around; no open doors; no show of empathy or understanding…be still…hold on
When you were so afraid and lonely; without hope…He held you in His arms
When the days dragged by and life became as torture deep within…He never left you
When you were searching for just a drop of water from passing souls yet to no avail…He became your refreshment
When the serpent lied and tried to break your mind in two…He sheltered you in His love
When the road was too hard to travel and death beckoned…He allowed the rays of the sun to bring encouragement and life
For so long you have held on
For so long you have believed
For so long you have been brave and full of courage
For so long, precious soul, you have fought the good fight of faith…all alone…so lonely and waiting; always waiting
Now turn and let it all fall on Him for He is the burden bearer; the All knowing All powerful Lord; the true King; the lover of your soul.
He will lift you to new heights for He loves you
He will be your fortress for He is the One who protects you
He will open new doors for His plan is to prosper you
He will give you His strength for He lives within you
He will be your God; your Lord; your best friend who stays closer than a brother for He has seen your heart towards Him
Now hold on to Him for together you walk this path; together you run this race and there is no one more gracious; more loving; more able to keep you then Him so with hope rising within, hold on.


He arises with the splendor of the One and only true God; every force standing in the way bows its head and moves
He rides on the wind and every cloud of disaster surrenders its resolve
He leads the army bringing with them the triumph of one already known as the King
He speaks and all tremble at His voice
He breaks the chains of bondage with a single word of command
He sees beyond the known and heralds in the new beginning with power and majesty
He turns the darkness away with eyes ablaze with the purity of holy light
He removes the enemy stalking His own through the Blood that was shed
He is all knowing; all powerful; full of glory; unmovable in grace
He is true to His word for in truth lies the key to His children and their victory
Forever present; forever full of power and grace; He calms the storms
Great and mighty; unchanging; three in one; one with us; our destiny and life
Eternal; before the foundation of the world; loving the ungodly; waiting for all
No other can replace Him; no other can bring forth the miracle of salvation
To mankind in their lost; lonely and twisted hearts of sin
For without the shedding of Blood there can be no remission of sin
Power; victory; purpose rises within us for we are secure in the knowledge that we are in Him who has no beginning and no end.
In honour we bow to You, wonderful; precious Lord Jesus; lover and healer of our souls.


Walking through the various pathways of Christianity one needs to be awake and alert for there are so many wolves just waiting for the precise moment when they can pounce and devour the sheep. In the world of make believe and fantasy there is no such thing as Christian wolves; after all are they not followers of our precious Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ? They are upright and distinguished leaders; full of compassion and are guaranteed to help and lead the flock onto higher levels of faith and so prepare them for the ultimate goal which is Heaven. So they proclaim and so they are supposed to be.
Man in his fallen state is but a fleshly being with feet of clay and most often consumed with areas of sin yet unknown even to himself. If taken into the arena of leadership too early and without the complete understanding of his own human shortfalls, in time, when temptation and unbridled inner fantasies take hold; due to stress or disappointments then the untamed beast that has lain dormant for maybe many a year, rises and begins its devastating attack on all in its vicinity. Surely this is not possible and does not take place in Christian churches? And if so, why make it public? Hide it under wraps; pretend all is well yet the victims of spiritual abuse, in whatever sphere, are left to pick up their own pieces, some never fully recovering, whilst the wolves continue their daily prowl looking for new victims so as, most times, to boost their own fleshly ego or satisfy their unclean lust that has never been renounced, repented of and thus allowing deliverance to take place.
Leaders are to lead by example; by putting their own ego on the alter of the Lord and take up the Cross of their Lord and Saviour, knowing that to be a servant of all, as was Jesus Christ, is a daily dying to self and self gain. A leader is willing to lead in the battle, set the goal and be the example to those that are waiting in the isles, still unsure of the Gospel of Salvation; to those struggling in areas longing for an outstretched hand to guide them and to the ones more advanced; now ready to be brought into the serious task of leadership themselves. The Church is the Body of Christ, made up of so many different personalities; so many colours; from all over the world. It is to lead and guide the nations; the weary; the downtrodden; the broken; the unlovely; the poor and the rich…mankind in general. It is to be the voice of the Holy of Holies; the King; the Good Shepherd; the Almighty God. Where and what has happened to the Church of Jesus Christ in today’s society? Why has she lost her voice; her say; her truth? He never changes; He is the same yesterday, today and forever. He rules; He is King and no other will ever take His place for the pure Holy Blood that was shed was once and for all men to be able to be reconciled back to the Father; to be born again and to reign and rule in this lifetime.
Man knows not what truly resides within his heart of hearts unless by divine grace he is given an understanding due to a word of wisdom and knowledge. Remove the masks and then the truth of the inner core being so often comes spilling out. How does a Church leader stop himself from greed when the money begins to pour into the Church and his salary far exceeds that of so many in his congregation? Yes a workman is worthy of his pay but a workman fleecing the flock through spiritual abuse promising them that if they give most if not all they have in their wallets etc, will reap 100 fold in this lifetime, is nothing more than a conman. We cannot bribe the Lord by giving to get; hold Him to ransom or do magic tricks in the spirit realm. We give because we are in love with our precious Lord and simply because we have a desire to be faithful to what is within our own heart and spirit. He does after all love a cheerful giver; one who feels led of the Holy Spirit to bless another and in our time of need, the seed we planted in faith, grows and we do receive a harvest. Is a leader permitted to take over the rule and reign of another’s own life thus even deciding whom they should marry; where they should stay etc? No!!! Every person has been given a free will and even when saved the Lord Himself does not remove our will and so we become robots. We choose to love Him; to read His Word and to grow; we choose to serve Him because that is our desire. As maturity sets in and we realise His Word shows us the way to living in abundance in every area so our will begins to line up with His will and our journey is now one with Him. Guidance from the pastor, preacher etc is important; they may even have a word from the Lord for us but it must be a conformation of what the Holy Spirit has already given us. We are not to look only to pastors or so called prophets for advice or direction as the Holy Spirit will lead and guide us if our hearts are in the care of the Lord. Many a soul has been directed onto paths and into marriages that were not from the Lord but from the fleshly advice of a particular pastor or prophet.
It has been know that pastors often feel they have the right to enjoy a sexual relationship with a pretty girl from their flock, regardless of the fact that they are married or are breaking the trust of all concerned. Even in counselling a woman figure should be present when it is two people of the opposite sex for it is a known fact that people become emotionally attached to those helping them. Spiritual adultery happens so easily and before long the pastor has many female worshipers hanging onto his every word; his every look and if either are lonely or in need of attention, a false love envelopes them only to cause havoc. Pastors are but mere men and after been in ministry for many years even they begin to find things hard going. A flirtation; time spent in the company of attractive female helpers etc are but a doorway to temptations some cannot resist.
Those flock that are in need of spiritual advice; spiritual upliftment must never be bombarded with scriptures that make them feel worse than when they asked for help. To show the face; the heart; the character of our Saviour Jesus, it is so necessary that the pastor listen first of all with the help and guidance of the Holy Spirit who is the Spirit of Truth and truly hear what is been revealed from the troubled heart of another. To interrupt with scripture that lays guilt on the one sharing only makes that person more burdened then they were. Ease the burden and encourage with the love of Jesus. Nothing is more able to break another’s spirit then dead scripture been tossed in the air. And it is dead if not made alive to another’s heart by the Holy Spirit. Yes a needy soul can say they want to die; they are afraid; they are angry etc. Why not? The Lord is still the Lord and He is not going to be shocked and suddenly have no power if one of His precious children speak out these things!!! After all, before the foundation of the world, He knew that soul would become His child and would experience these traumatic emotions one day. Now He is waiting to see if His leader is going to bring healing through love and understanding or condemnation through throwing scripture around without one touch of gentle love engulfed in it.
We are not God; we are not the One who paid such a price for the salvation of the world; we are but His children given the amazing privilege to represent Him in all His power and glory on this earth. We need to realise it is His power that sets souls free; His love that saves and restores; His grace and mercy that allows us to connect with those in bondage and so bring healing and the knowledge that Jesus lives. To the wolves bringing a false representation of Jesus Christ, know that there is help and forgiveness but like all of us, you need to acknowledge that you are wrong and repent as we do when needed. Your positions as leaders are given hopefully by the Lord and not some fantasy you built up in your own mind and so walk a path of fleshy lust in so many areas. Leaders lead always by example; admitting they make mistakes; showing their humanity in been able to ask for prayer when needed and then the love and glory of the Lord will fill your Church for the transparency you show will be that which in turn will allow the Holy Spirit to move on your behalf so souls can be saved; healed and delivered.
Jesus Christ is Lord and He will share His glory with no man. May His Church rise from the ashes and become the leader to the nations for without our God we are reduced to nothing more then the world which unfortunately is drowning in its own destruction and grief.


Howling…through the inner chambers of the hardened heart and cold mind
Winds of thoughts focused on greed…flesh and tormented brutal plots and plans
As the season of the icy stature turns to face a land of turbulence and trials
Man rules from lofty places within his god forsaken spirit born out of deception
Away with the past…the past is buried and can never return…now is the hour
Breaking under the strain of forces determined to bring all together as one
One…one can never be… for spiritual beings are united through the shedding of Blood
Blood that was pure…holy…and lasts for a life time
Floundering under the pressure of the dead yet the person it is not…
Fallen angels…demonic spirits wanting their full of ignorant souls forced to work
Work so as to be accepted and show their respect for those long gone
See the unseen threats thrown all around…greed for what is not given but will be taken
No life in the spirit …simply a stature of ice walking with feet of clay
Crying…hear the cry of a country that has blood on its hands
Broken; destroyed and dead within; walking; waiting for the season to impact its force
On souls blinded by their own eyes due to refusal of sight…for sight brings pain
Pain in having material gods removed and now they are nothing…worthless
Howling…the icy wind is howling… wrapping itself around the outcome of false rule
Bring back to the throne the one who is and needs to be king
Without his nail pierced hands holding onto a land destroying its own worth
Lies the inevitable outcome of waste…burnt to nothing by the scorching rays of destruction
Howling icy winds render their own sacrifices to gods not given by the only true God
See…precious souls…begin to see through discernment; knowledge and wisdom
Come back and save the land; the nation; the hope of all waiting in the isles.



He gives us beauty for ashes; the oil of joy for mourning; the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness. As children of the Lord; having accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour, we are indeed so wonderfully cared for; so graciously loved and never left alone and without. It is one thing to hear of the grace of the Lord but entirely another to experience it for oneself. When we are born again and want to follow after the Lord and step out in faith, bit by bit we will learn and taste that the Lord is good and always true to His Word. The Holy Spirit will lead and guide us and even when we stumble and make mistakes, He still encourages us to go on. What is beauty for ashes? What does it mean to us as individuals? I am sure if you do know the Lord and look back, you will recall the times He saw you through dark moments in your walk. Personally I have been through so many traumatic times; times when I thought it would be impossible to see anything of beauty again in my life. We lived in Cape Town for five years and had been led there by the Lord Himself. I went through one of the darkest moments of my life; mentally; physically and emotionally. So often we make mistakes and u turn when actually we should have continued on the straight highway we were originally on. Due to allowing people in my life that I should have closed the door on, I was thrown into one of the darkest pits ever experienced. Ashes; all became ashes. I was burnt and broken and had reached the point where I was willing to do drastic things in order to be free from this person. To cut to the chase, I saw only disaster; experienced only pain inwardly and physically and the fear was so great that I hardly ever relaxed or slept. No one must know the truth. I hid all things away; put on a brave face and kept on. Praying and praying; actually I talk to the Lord as I do to all other people, I asked for Him to intervene. When things could get no worse, for I was on the edge of a nervous breakdown plus had nearly died in hospital due to the surgeon been intoxicated when he operated on me, the Lord undertook and bit by bit my days of torment and fear were closed down. For a very long time there was no beauty in my world for true beauty comes from within the heart and is not simply those amazing things around you. As healing of my own spirit and soul took place; as fear of various things began to subside so the ashes were blown away by time, love and acceptance of self. Beauty of thought; of hope; of coming to terms with my own human misguided ways; of my surroundings began to flood my inner being once more and I comprehended the unconditional love and power of Jesus my Lord. He truly gives us beauty for ashes.
The oil of joy for mourning; oh Lord, how we all need that oil; that anointing that breaks the yoke. Have you felt that it is impossible to be joyful? Joy though is different, I believe, to feeling happy. We are happy when life is going well; when we receive an unexpected gift that we really wanted etc. It is based on that “good” inner feeling that can last at times only for a short while. Happiness is but for a moment until some other horrible, disliked situation takes place then we are no longer happy. Joy however is one of the fruits of the Spirit and you don’t do anything to force it to work; to be there; it is yours already given by the Lord. My first baby was born at seven months due to my appendix bursting whilst pregnant. The Lord was utterly gracious and spared my life even though the poison went through out my body and damaged organs on its dreadful journey. I had major surgery and the baby and I lived through it although I was still dreadfully ill and never fully recovered. Pain and been in and out of hospital; put in ice to bring my temperature down etc became my life. At seven months Hazel was born naturally even though I was full of new cuts and scars and in agony. No breathing was detected. When she was brought to life we were rushed to a maternity hospital in the ambulance and Hazel had oxygen all the way. She weighed a mere 2 pounds in those days. No incubator was given to her; no nurse or matron covered themselves when dealing with her and my sister had to put her in a hospital bedpan in her small car and take her to the then Children’s hospital. On arrival she stopped breathing. For ten days she survived and grew in the incubator there but choked to death on milk due to no nurse been with her. When I finally fell pregnant years later after operations to fix my body up due to the poison, the Lord showed me that I was having twins. Actually, this word of knowledge came before I fell pregnant. After fainting with pain, bleeding and been so ill yet again, the Dr found one baby was in the tube but growing normally and the other in the womb. He had to remove both and the ovary so I was now worse off then ever. Broken with grief and questions, He flooded my entire being with this most amazing joy. As the oil of joy for mourning enveloped my suffering in all areas, His gentle presence and beautiful love brought calmness and peace to my fragile and delicate body, soul and spirit. No human touch; no human love could heal but His pure oil of joy touched deep down into every part and mourning was forced to bow its knees in submission to the King.

Wrap yourself my dear friend in the garment of praise for in so doing you will experience that the heaviness brought on by worldly situations; by hurts; depression due to circumstances will fade away and in its place peace and faith will once again rise within your heart and spirit. That is impossible you may say but truly it is completely possible and I have seen it to be true in my own life and walk with my Lord. When we accept Him, our spirit is born again but our mind needs to be renewed by His Word. That is why we study; and then see that what He has promised us, we can be, if we allow His grace to fill our hearts. We are no longer in the kingdom of darkness but now we are His children and our kingdom is the kingdom of light where He rules and reigns. Put on the new man and in so doing we will walk in the spirit and not the flesh. When we are in a difficult situation and all we want to do is moan and groan and end up becoming depressed then start, in faith, to praise the Lord. Yes, it is hard for the flesh is weak but as you begin to praise and thank Him for your salvation; your food; your home; your health; your ability to do normal every day things, the Holy Spirit flows through you and you find yourself so grateful; so thankful. His love becomes known even more in that moment and the spirit of heaviness leaves. Take note, it is called a spirit. It is not within you but attacks from the outside. It has attacked you maybe unawares and you may have taken it as your own personal feelings about a given situation. As you praise Him for even the smallest of things so the Word says He inhabits the praises of His people. He is right there even if at first it may not feel like it but we don’t go on what we feel but on what is written.
Thank you precious Lord for undertaking in every area of our lives. We give You all the glory and honour.
Be blessed for you are loved.


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